I have always struggle with my weights as long as I can remember.
- After having my second child I knew I had let myself go! Being the heaviest I had ever been 165lbs I felt very ashamed and unhappy, depressed and I acted like it didn’t bother me. I use to make fun of myself but really inside I was dying!! I made excuses “oh I just had a baby”.
" I hid inside my house because I felt ashamed. I couldn’t enjoy being a mom. Felt some resentment toward my children because my body had changed so much. It made it hard to get out bed some days. I kept all my feelings bottled up inside and acted like I was fine. I felt like a failure as a mom."
- September of 2016 I was in my best friend wedding party in Ontario, the dress I planned to wear didn’t fit. I remember crying in my closet so upset at myself. I was forced to buy a new dress one that wasn’t every flattering to me. That trip to Ontario probably one of the worst moment in my life. I felt so embarrassed to people that I had not seen in 14 years. After the wedding my family and I spent an entire day walking in Niagra Falls. The pain I felt at the end of my day was unreal, my feet hurt, my thigh hurt from rubbing together and were bloody. It was the worst feeling ever! A family trip that was supposed to be fun made me so upset at myself. I knew right there something needed to change. I was tired of feeling the way I did about myself.
- On October 1st 2016 my journey started! I pushed myself hard, I spend many hours in the gym, I cried, I sweated, I was tired, sore from the exercise, I plateaued many times, I fell off the wagon a few times, I’ve wanted to quit, been frustrated, was disappointed in myself and was my biggest critic. Instead I pushed hard and harder. Every month I could see changes in some way, if it wasn't physical, it was emotional or mental changes. I learnt how to feed my body and how to make better decision in what I fuel my body with. The biggest change was emotionally. Slowly by slowly I started feeling happy again. I felt a lot better in my own skin. Those dark days I felt before slowly started to vanish.
"I started living again, loving myself again and loving being a mom. What I gained from team G-FIT is better than eating habits, great working out ethics, and the most amazing of this journey was my happiness, feeling confident, being proud, being able to see happiness in my children again and not sense of resentment. I set goals for myself and I killed them. Most of all being able to love myself again."